Blahhh-uuggg

This will be my blog of venting. It is personal, and in this case I would agree with Daniel Quinn that systems always fail...Excuse me if I interpret this wrong but systems really are lame. I feel like they have failed me instead of worked with me. First of all, our whole life is run by something. There is so much control over us. The stronger the system, the better the programs and the more power there is. What am I getting at?! Well, UW. At this moment, I am annoyed with the Office of Student Fiscal Services and Office of Financial aid. All semester, I have been between two schools figuring out what to do. I transferred back to Alaska because of expenses and to be closer to family. Also, my grades there were slipping. After graduation from High School, I was confident and felt I knew what was going on. My ego was broad. I was accepted into a fairly well school, I had scholarships, and I was leaving Alaska! I knew little. After arriving in Washington for the first time, I had the whole city life and 40,000 student body population to adjust to. There no longer was a small town feel and I was lost. I was gungho to succeed though, so I made friends and stepped totally out of my comfort zone. I tried my best but everything was too much. I had the hardest decision to make. EVER! I chose to transfer back to UAA. Doing this was giving up in my eyes. I hated it and that started showing in my emotions and confusion. I needed to stop dwelling and being hard on myself because I was getting no where. I didn't give up, I just took a different route because some plan didn't fall through. Stillll... I am adjusting and getting situated here. Because I registered for one class at UW and did not withdraw correctly, I was charged a few thousand dollars. I would pay that, but first I would need my financial aid money. In order to receive it, I needed to be officially admitted to UAA. but first I needed my Official Transcript... and to get that I needed to pay my bill. Pffff! I was not aware of what was going on until my account was locked and I received notices a month after they were postmarked. I wrote 2 letters of petition and talked to who I could, but I was too late on taking action apparently. Everything was rejected. It was announced to me last week I would not receive any of my grants because the semester would end and by the time paperwork 3 weeks would pass. This was ooberly irritating, but I was able to luckily find a way. Again my plans have changed and working this summer will make up for everything. I was super frustrated with everything and felt like dropping out of school, but after sleep and moral support, I am now chilled out. This whole learning experience is humbling.